Everything changes pt.2

Things change. That's life's order. It's a fact, not some deep thought. Circumstances change things, people change things. Everything changes everything...
People change. Yes, I truly believe that people can change. It just has to come from deep within, otherwise it's not gonna work.

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Change doesn't always have to be good or bad. It can be simply different. It always have multiple sides, not just a simple A and B like in the old times. It's all shades of grey, not black and white only. And You are the one shading it.
It's not one person's share to decide whether it's a good change or not. Different point of views, different inputs, different opinions and feelings shape the outcome. But You are the sculptor. You have the tools, you have the strength, you have to have the desire to create.

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Everything changes. We are changing. But I feel good about this now. I feel like we're going somewhere, I feel like our direction truly is Wonderland now. I feel love and feel loved at the same time. I feel You, I feel Us.

It's magic once again! <3

24 Hours

No signal. No connection. Maybe its my fault, and maybe yours. I feel cold but not inside me, but from your side. Theres two things what i want from you. Sincerity and loyalty. Thats all. So I dont want to play 'guesswut' game. If you had a problem with me, say it to my face, not through your posts-funny, i do the same-and if i ask you 'whats the problem, Honey?' dont answer that 'nothing, or everything' and dont line up meaningless cliches. Cuz i cant read between the lines. Im a straight person with a simple mind. And anyway, the pillar of the relationship  is the confidence or trust (whats the right word?i never know) and the openness. Im not your enemy  and your patient. Im your Love and your other part.And you are these for me. Well, maybe i make mistakes, but who does not? Mutual submission. Thats the key. I can leave my bad habits, and adatp to you. But not immadietly and one day to another. I asked from you a little patience.  But you think you are a queen in your world. But you have to realize that its not your world. Its ours. You have to change, and me too. Anyway, im still  feel cold because you are proud of yourself. Dot be stubborn. I love you, and you love me too. You said that a few months ago, you want calmness even so you are the one who make this beautiful love into a horrible nightmare. Do you enjoy it? Cuz im not. You are just diggin' the hole between us with you dignity. Slow down. With this, you cant reach anything. I want to change and i will. Slowly. Im a human and not a computer program where i can set up everything instantly. Once again, if you want to say something dont paraphrase it, just say it clearly to me. I want something that i can abide by. A reason to believe. You, Me. Us. Love.  Can you give me this trifle?


P.S.: Im still love you more than anything.

Sleep deprived

The beeping sound. The missing feeling. The empty bed on your side. I'm not sleeping, I know I won't either. I'm not calling anymore, I hate the beep. I hate your beep. I hate your number. I hate to know that I hate being without you.

I'm not sleeping, but I'm not calling anymore. I just wanted to let you know that I love you. And I'm not calling anymore. <3

When you're gone

There are times in life when you don't get what you want or at least not when you want it. It's hard to accept, that's for sure. The waiting, the frustration, the time slowing down like it's even going to stop once and for all; it all makes these situations sometimes pretty unbearable. I'm not saying waiting isn't good or constructive. It can lead to appreciating things more then earlier, or at least as much as you did before you had everything right away. It still hurts though. The only thing you can do is to try to get your mind off of the waiting and think about the satisfaction it'll give you once you're in the finish line.

So now I'm going to try as hard as I can, and go to sleep with You on my mind. I'm going to think about your smile, your eyes looking straight into my eyes, your arms around me holding on tight and never letting go again. I love you, and that's all that matters. Nothing can change that, nothing can come between you and me. Like you said: together anything becomes possible. I'll see you in our dreams, and I'll feel you in my sleep <3

"However far away, I will always love you,

However long I stay, I will always love you"

Shit can happens. get over it and move on with life.

Happiness is yours for the taking. Where ever you are, whatever your doing, no matter what the situation. Even if you have to find it in taking the 1st step to making the changes you haven’t had the courage to make yet. Or maybe in the self satisfaction of facing something scary or working towards something you want. Be happy today. Easier said than done, Better done than anything. life was never ment to be easy, work hard for what you want, don’t settle for anything less than what you are worth,BELIEVE IN YOURSELF or nobody else will.your life is what YOU make it so put in the effort, take small steps at a time, and you will be surprised with what you can achieve.Stop putting yourself down. Start enjoying the things you like about yourself, and if there are things you want to change, either get to work on it or get over it. If there’s things you can’t change, Accept it and and love your life. Everyone WANTS to LIKE you. Don’t discourage US. Anyone who doesn’t,I hate to disappoint you but it has nothing to do with YOU. That’s their issue. Don’t let them ruin it for US. Stop buying into the Bullshit and decide what YOU like and what YOUR ok with and live it, and 1 more time, Stop putting yourself down.

If you cant.. well...take a step back, and literally fuck your own face. Kyra and Cani know best.

where would we be now?

Locked down and alienated, confused and complicated.Now it seems you still have my heart.

Shot down and unaccepted, sometimes i get the feeling everything is finished from the start.

But im scared of what ill find,the search for answers just keeps going nowhere.All i know 

is that its killing me inside as i raise this final bottle to the sky

Here's to promises that die.Here's to all the nights we said our last goodbyes

As we burned another day off all our lives here's to memories that will fade,

like the photographs that scream of better days.Its all weighing on my mind

Locked down and devistated, refused and understated.Now i see how you stole my heart

now I'm forced to breathe without you sometimes I get the feeling everything is tearing us apart.

But i wont let it happen.You and me are a couple that the world never seen before. we control our future. and not the future control us. I love you more than anything in this world. Dont you feel? Because i feel you deeply inside my heart. forever.