My little gift from Me to You with Love

And nothing else matters.

Forever

After everything we have been and gonna through, Im honestly truly happy in my life. I promise you it gets better and I will make your dreams came true. My thoughts are hard to write out or even share for that matter. In my head it all makes sense but in my mouth the words refuse to form. I hope you feel me deep inside of you and in your mind that my love for you will be true and strong as long as you believe in our magically love. I love you with all of my pieces because you made my life heaven. Or am I dreaming? If yes, I dont want to wake anymore, I want a neverending sunset with only you. 

Home is where the heart is...

...You stole mine, so keep it safe! And I'll keep coming back home to you.

Everything changes pt.2

Things change. That's life's order. It's a fact, not some deep thought. Circumstances change things, people change things. Everything changes everything...
People change. Yes, I truly believe that people can change. It just has to come from deep within, otherwise it's not gonna work.

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Change doesn't always have to be good or bad. It can be simply different. It always have multiple sides, not just a simple A and B like in the old times. It's all shades of grey, not black and white only. And You are the one shading it.
It's not one person's share to decide whether it's a good change or not. Different point of views, different inputs, different opinions and feelings shape the outcome. But You are the sculptor. You have the tools, you have the strength, you have to have the desire to create.

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Everything changes. We are changing. But I feel good about this now. I feel like we're going somewhere, I feel like our direction truly is Wonderland now. I feel love and feel loved at the same time. I feel You, I feel Us.

It's magic once again! <3

24 Hours

No signal. No connection. Maybe its my fault, and maybe yours. I feel cold but not inside me, but from your side. Theres two things what i want from you. Sincerity and loyalty. Thats all. So I dont want to play 'guesswut' game. If you had a problem with me, say it to my face, not through your posts-funny, i do the same-and if i ask you 'whats the problem, Honey?' dont answer that 'nothing, or everything' and dont line up meaningless cliches. Cuz i cant read between the lines. Im a straight person with a simple mind. And anyway, the pillar of the relationship  is the confidence or trust (whats the right word?i never know) and the openness. Im not your enemy  and your patient. Im your Love and your other part.And you are these for me. Well, maybe i make mistakes, but who does not? Mutual submission. Thats the key. I can leave my bad habits, and adatp to you. But not immadietly and one day to another. I asked from you a little patience.  But you think you are a queen in your world. But you have to realize that its not your world. Its ours. You have to change, and me too. Anyway, im still  feel cold because you are proud of yourself. Dot be stubborn. I love you, and you love me too. You said that a few months ago, you want calmness even so you are the one who make this beautiful love into a horrible nightmare. Do you enjoy it? Cuz im not. You are just diggin' the hole between us with you dignity. Slow down. With this, you cant reach anything. I want to change and i will. Slowly. Im a human and not a computer program where i can set up everything instantly. Once again, if you want to say something dont paraphrase it, just say it clearly to me. I want something that i can abide by. A reason to believe. You, Me. Us. Love.  Can you give me this trifle?


P.S.: Im still love you more than anything.

Sleep deprived

The beeping sound. The missing feeling. The empty bed on your side. I'm not sleeping, I know I won't either. I'm not calling anymore, I hate the beep. I hate your beep. I hate your number. I hate to know that I hate being without you.

I'm not sleeping, but I'm not calling anymore. I just wanted to let you know that I love you. And I'm not calling anymore. <3

When you're gone

There are times in life when you don't get what you want or at least not when you want it. It's hard to accept, that's for sure. The waiting, the frustration, the time slowing down like it's even going to stop once and for all; it all makes these situations sometimes pretty unbearable. I'm not saying waiting isn't good or constructive. It can lead to appreciating things more then earlier, or at least as much as you did before you had everything right away. It still hurts though. The only thing you can do is to try to get your mind off of the waiting and think about the satisfaction it'll give you once you're in the finish line.

So now I'm going to try as hard as I can, and go to sleep with You on my mind. I'm going to think about your smile, your eyes looking straight into my eyes, your arms around me holding on tight and never letting go again. I love you, and that's all that matters. Nothing can change that, nothing can come between you and me. Like you said: together anything becomes possible. I'll see you in our dreams, and I'll feel you in my sleep <3

"However far away, I will always love you,

However long I stay, I will always love you"

Shit can happens. get over it and move on with life.

Happiness is yours for the taking. Where ever you are, whatever your doing, no matter what the situation. Even if you have to find it in taking the 1st step to making the changes you haven’t had the courage to make yet. Or maybe in the self satisfaction of facing something scary or working towards something you want. Be happy today. Easier said than done, Better done than anything. life was never ment to be easy, work hard for what you want, don’t settle for anything less than what you are worth,BELIEVE IN YOURSELF or nobody else will.your life is what YOU make it so put in the effort, take small steps at a time, and you will be surprised with what you can achieve.Stop putting yourself down. Start enjoying the things you like about yourself, and if there are things you want to change, either get to work on it or get over it. If there’s things you can’t change, Accept it and and love your life. Everyone WANTS to LIKE you. Don’t discourage US. Anyone who doesn’t,I hate to disappoint you but it has nothing to do with YOU. That’s their issue. Don’t let them ruin it for US. Stop buying into the Bullshit and decide what YOU like and what YOUR ok with and live it, and 1 more time, Stop putting yourself down.

If you cant.. well...take a step back, and literally fuck your own face. Kyra and Cani know best.

where would we be now?

Locked down and alienated, confused and complicated.Now it seems you still have my heart.

Shot down and unaccepted, sometimes i get the feeling everything is finished from the start.

But im scared of what ill find,the search for answers just keeps going nowhere.All i know 

is that its killing me inside as i raise this final bottle to the sky

Here's to promises that die.Here's to all the nights we said our last goodbyes

As we burned another day off all our lives here's to memories that will fade,

like the photographs that scream of better days.Its all weighing on my mind

Locked down and devistated, refused and understated.Now i see how you stole my heart

now I'm forced to breathe without you sometimes I get the feeling everything is tearing us apart.

But i wont let it happen.You and me are a couple that the world never seen before. we control our future. and not the future control us. I love you more than anything in this world. Dont you feel? Because i feel you deeply inside my heart. forever.

Just so you know: You're old... *Happy Birthday!*

Well first of all, let me tell you about my birthday this year. It was a beautiful, sunny tuesday, the 14th of June. First, I went to have lunch with my amazing Mom, only I couldn't help but hurry to meet someone special. He offered to take me to a beautiful lake to blow bubbles and just relax. I was really looking forward to meet Him, because I knew Him for so long already but never really got the chance to hang out and spend time together. Everything went great, the bubbles, the time together was great, and I was hoping he'd finally kiss me for the first time. Of course he didn't so I had to, but that's only because he's such a chicken =D Anyways, my birthday was amazing, once I finally got what I was longing for the last couple of days, weeks, months, maybe even years =$ That's when it all started officially. <3
And now I wish an even more wonderful birthday to my amazing boyfriend. All the happiness he gave me, I wish to be able to give Him back multiplied by a million.

Honey, I love you with all my heart, and I hope I show you the best I can. Even if you'd feel half of my love, that's already much much more than I could ever imagine to give. So have a great birthday, even though you're getting old, wrinkley, and bald =D <3 I miss you!

Dancing Through Sunday

Good Evening, Strangers!

What can I say now? Well I think, that was the one of the best weekend I ever had in my life. Its not true..because every weekend that i spend with Her is the best. And weekdays too. :) Okay the weather is rainy nowadays but who cares if there's sunsine  inside the people's heart. Rain and sunsine make rainbow! In friday afternoon She had a perfomance far away from me, so me and Detox went out into the night in Queen's City, and met a lot of our common friends in the local bar, and drink up some beer. Well i was a smoker a joker and a midnight walker, and im quit smoking but sometimes i get the cigarette's feeling and it so hard to resist. If you smoke, you know what i mean. So we sat around at the club's table with friends, talkin 'bout tattoos, drinkin beers, and suddenly I light up a cigarette. I never thought that time She can came in to the club, and see me when im smoking. Yeah that was awkward moment.  I choosed Her and not the cigarette. And im failed. Im so sorry honey once again, it wont be happen in the future. Promise.So we went back to my town and had a really really great night, morning, and afternoon. Yesterday was very interesting too! My friend invited me a common birthday party at his garden and they wanted to me to play on guitar and singing around the campfire. That was awesome. Laughs, Songs, Whiskey, Beer, Fight, Anarchy in VP! They are adults but doing party like youth. Nay...better than young! I drink a lot of whiskey and slowly i got a little bit drunk. So then, when the party was over, i met my beautiful girlfriend at the inner city and continue the party in front of the Castle with our friends. Huh, i cant remember every moment from that time. But that was awesome too! and the late night. :) nevermind, Sorry Honey<3  :$   And Sunday....waking up next to her...the best moments in my life, the first thing after i awake is She, and start the day with "good morning Sweetie, I love you! And she said the same to me. I had an invitation from her at her hous at 18:00. I was very excited, what will happen.So i catched a bus and travelled to her in the afternoon. She made me a dinner...a very very tasty dinner. When i was eating it with her, i felt warmness in my soul and love in the food! you cant imagine how much i love you, Honey! And here's her gift to me: Isnt it the cutest thing in a relationship?:)

Now its my birthday! I gotta go to sleep, hard days are coming! *angel face*  Good Night Beautiful People! Good Night, My Love!


Will you join me in this dance, this dance of misery. Will you lend yourself to beauty that will horrify?
Let me hide within your black, the still inside your eyes deafened, caught within a cry so sensual, as step by step by step, I seperate as breath to breath, as I... suffocate. So who will follow? Who is the lead? I know I'll leave a stain, because I bleed as we dance, we all dance we all... have no chance in this horrid romance!

Amazing times

This is just a quick sticky note so y'all won't feel left out =) I just arrived home from my amazing boyfriend after a little sleepy but amazing morning/afternoon together. But I'm going back in just a few hours to continue where we have left off. I can't help but run back to Him everytime we have to go our seperate ways, because the time we spend together, always makes me want more and more. I might be addicted to this crazy rockstar, but I'm perfectly fine with that! What we have is magic, and that's all that matters!
Honey, I love you with all my heart and I can't wait to fall asleep by your side tonight! <3 You're somebody that I found just in time!

Rainy Days but not Moody Days

Good Morning, Strangers! Another beautiful day has spent yesterday. Nothing can compare in this world when im waking up with my Love next to me in my bed, and the first thing i see in the morning is She. The day started early, cause i had to go to a job interview. Well, i thing it went pretty good-but i would better to split out my gum before i came in to the office. :D Nevermind, so...in the middle of the day i fall asleep in the bathroom tub, and had  a bad dream in the cold water. That was crazy, i've just jump out the tube when im awaked. In the afternoon i met my Sweetie and one of my friend and went to Jimmy's Tattoo Salon and got a new pirate ship tattoo on my arm.  I love it! Cant wait to fill the colors in it And then we went up to Her, and having a really good time tete-a-tete! :] When im with Her, the world is no longer around us. Just She and Me. I want it everyday from morning to mornig! Now its a dream, but in time it will come true! Now its raining..but the rain cant stop me. Soon im on my way to her to repeat the yesterday. People, im not a hippy, but make love and not war! :)

Love You All:
Cani

All the things on my mind

We're so different in a lot of ways. I'm a thinker /you're soooo not/. I always have things on my mind. Plans to make, dreams, worries, and everything that usually takes too much out of me. My wheels never stop spinning.
Except for the time I can spend with you! I like how my thoughts go away and only come back for split seconds. I love how you make me feel whenever we're focusing on each other and nothing else. I'd love to have this every single day and not having to think about when and where will I have this amazing togetherness again. And I know the dreams I'm spinning my wheels about will come true eventually. =)

You are a part of me, a part I couldn't live without. And I hope I will never have to!
*I love you!* <3

Some thing's never change

Like this little tattoo on my arm that she made it! And this evening we will be at Jimmy's tattoo salon! Honey do you want another one? I do! :] But now i'll make it on you, haha!

A New Beginning

Well, good morning and not mourning, everyone! Now I see its my turn, Kyra prevented me. :) How should I start this post? She wrote down the truth before me, I think this blog is the cutest thing i ever had in a relationship. I dont worry about the publicity,we'll write and express our unique life separately and also together. Not everything, of course, every couple needs a private life in love.So dont be soo curious! Its a school for beginners, and we are the teachers! And in time this blog will become a love-diary, and in the future we'll look back and see what and when we did wrong and what we did right. I hope everythings will be alright! Well, i maybe a little bit fucked up and sometimes i mess up our fragile togetherness. I want to be a good boy but my environment  requires me to be a bad boy. I know she dont deserve it.Change.My life is a fckn rollercoaster.

What im sayin today is the exact opposite of yesterday. I wish i know my own mind. I will! Promise:) Just let me be myself. Sometimes crazy

sometimes calm sometimes lovely, sometimes hateful. but one thing will be always sure. My heart is yours! Take care  of it! I care of yours too! Life is beautiful. Love is awesome but unpredictable and uncontrollable, thats why is impressive.

Love you all beautiful people and have a nice day!


P.S: My english knowlege is not well as my Love, she is better than me. But i hope you are understand me:)

Cani

Here we are...

I was pretty surprised when my handsome boyfriend came up with the idea of making a blog together. We both have our ways to communicate with the world and we have pretty different styles as well. But when I really started thinking about it, I realized, that's what makes this such a great idea. Sharing our lives and experiences is one step, but combining them goes much further than just to tell the two sides of our story. This is where it'll all clash and sometimes probably collide. But the truth is, no matter what couples do - partying, watching tv, eating, or whatever they usually do - when they do it together instead of doing it seperately, makes it a whole lot easier, better, funnier and much less complicated to live. It makes the two of them content and complete. I think this applies in our situation as well.
Y'all probably know and/or read our blogs, but that's totally different. This is the two of us, side by side, hand in hand, telling what's on our mind not only to you all, but to each other in a twisted interweb way =)
This is the imprint of our combined Wonderland which we try to create for ourselves. Sometimes we're lost in moments, lost in emotions, lost in the world, and other times we're found somewhere unexpected, found doing what we do best and most importantly, found in each other's Wonderlands becoming the one and only KyraCani.
So here we are... Lost and Found <3